Apart from my very obvious mental problems which I've carried around with me from day one, I've still managed to stay physically healthy. I think because I know I'm 'lacking' in the cerebral plane, I've concentrated on being physically healthy. It's something I can do on my own without anyone else judging me. Hahaha, I hear you say. What's with all the drink? That's not healthy. No. It's not. I think of how much more healthier I could have been without it, but, like I say, it's something I've felt the need to do. It's something I've never regretted. It's still a socially acceptable way of getting through it all, short of shooting up or resorting to medication. Which I have tried and it never worked. (medication, not shooting up!). And, anyway, I like drinking. It brings me joy. It stops me being myself for a while. It sometimes makes me crude and bombastic, but all drugs have side effects and at least the side effects of drink are short lived. Rather than having to medicate for the months ahead, I just medicate for the day ahead and then suffer the following morning. A quick fix, but not prescribed by anyone else but myself. No one tells me how much to take, or when I should stop. Rather this madness than pills.